Some Crap I've Been Meaning To Blog About

The Future - I can't imagine continuing my blogging streak. I will probably continue to post photos and crap, but I have little "mind time" these days with just Sid here. It's 6 AM and do you know where your sleep went?!? Sorry...it is 6 AM and I'm debating if I should fall asleep or stay awake and try to be a productive citizen. I have lots to do today including taking care of Squid, going to Home Depot, going to Walgreens, paying bills, working on my resume, entertaining two sets of grandparents, going to a wedding, going to see Addy, and cleaning up puke. With Addy at home, I'll have little time at all...and no time to blog. So I'll get some of my "blog thoughts" out of the way while I'm sitting here struggling to type and spell correctly.



My Life Sucks - I realized yesterday that I was really pissed off about having these two children in my life. Not that I hate them, but they really cramp my lifestyle. I just wanted to get a haircut yesterday, and from the time I left at 1:30 and the time I got home at 4:00, I realized that I could have done a lot of other stuff. But the first thing I have to do is make sure Squid is fed while Jami pumps milk for her and Addy. Then Jami or I have to hold her upright for 20-30 minutes or she'll puke all over the damn place. Then we have to clean, then we have to prep for the next session, then we have to rest, then we have to live life in the next 2 hour interval before taking care of Sid again. AND...Addy isn't even home yet. I came to the realization that life will suck for a long time. Yes yes...those chubby cheeks and the cuddle time are great, but they don't pay the bills. And John needs to find some local Chicago work. So I was just really ANGRY yesterday, and it took FOREVER to get from Western/Clybourn to State/Roosevelt. So I'm bitchin' and moanin'...and I realize how hard my parents must have worked. And how hard Jami's parents must have worked with four kids! I also realize I'm not half the man either my dad or Jami's dad is. I'm just a punk kid who needs to man up and have a little faith and do this thing we call life. I got a long ways to go.



Nicknames - I used to give all sorts of nicknames to people, and I think Squid works so well for Sidney. I mean Squidney, Squidders, Squidsquatch...they are all good to use. She is so squirmy and so strong for a 5 pound preemie...so Squid it is. What about Addy?!? Anyone have any ideas? I really like Faddy Addy, but Jami is worried she'll have an eating disorder by the time she's 4 years old. Add, or Dee, or Deeson...who named this stupid kid without thinking of a good nickname to use?!? Even when they were born, Sid was the Runt. But Addy was just Addy. I'm open for any suggestions.



PG-13 VS JC Unfiltered - So I've learned how to filter my thoughts and actions depending on the audience. I don't know if this is an Asian thing or what, but I learned to act one way with one of my worlds and another way in a different world. We have all these different circles of friends or worlds that don't always intersect. So growing up I had church, school, korean school, magnet school, korean friends, non-korean friends...blah blah blah. You sorta tailored how you act with each circle, like you have a different face for different environments. Like you don't treat your non-korean friend's parents like you can treat your korean friend's parents. Anyway, my work demeanor is so different than my at home demeanor. But as life goes on, I care less and less and it seems I'm more consistent now. So what's my point? I've tried to make this blog as close to what I'm like as possible, however I'm obviously missing some of either side of the spectrum. Lots of intersections of people see this post, and some are wondering why I'm so screwed up and others are wondering why I'm not saying more screwed up stuff! So I keep this thing PG-13...JC Unfiltered isn't a pretty site, but the evil does come out at home. Jami sees all sides and she knows that sometimes JC Unfiltered is there but she knows that it isn't the only thing there. (Side Note: Many of my white friends don't understand the different faces thing, but my buddy Bill does. I don't know if he remembers this, but I was debating on having Dave come to my annual golf trip years ago. I didn't want to show him JC Unfiltered and drunk. Well Bill understood my hesitation, while others didn't. Thanks Bill.)



Career Change - I'm thinking of changing careers but don't know what to do. I was thinking about trying to write a sitcom. Some people think I have a sense of humor, while others think I'm just a plain ignoramus. Well I think going from Healthcare IT Consultant to TV show writer and comedian might be a big leap...but isn't that what people do to make it big?!? I always thought I should have been on Real World Seattle, but I was afraid of embarassing my family. Okay...whatever, right? But don't be suprised if I write one season out and try to get a pilot for it. Who'll be laughing then?!? I think it'll have to be on HBO or Showtime cause I don't want some vanilla made for all audiences show. I want something raw...true...real...maybe JC Unfiltered?!?



I Hate People Example #1 - I plan on making a blog series out of this alone. Here is the first example. I know, I know...Act Justly, Love Mercy, Walk Humbly...but sometimes I'm just evil. So forgive me, okay?

Jami and I get on the #3 bus going South down Michigan Ave. All is well until we get near Congress and this person gets on the bus. This person's fare card doesn't have the appropriate amount on it. So the bus driver tells the person to get off or use cash or whatever. The person tells the driver that they have the fare and they need to go through their bag to find it. Problem is that person just got their nails done AND person is on the dang phone AND person has a Starbucks drink in their hand! So the driver allows person on the bus for awhile. Person is trying to deal with phone, drink, and drying nails while rummaging through a bag. They get to their card and cash holder and they are seriously trying to find another CTA card with wet nails. At first I was like, why is that person acting retarded?!? But Jami explained that people with wet nails hold things like that and don't want to screw up their nails. At the next stop the driver stops the bus and waits for this dumb ass to get the fare. Meanwhile, this person has drink, phone, and now bag contents all over the bus seats. AND, is still on the phone! The bus driver is waiting for person to pay, and all of us on the bus are amazed at how this person thinks the world revolves around them. I almost got up and paid for person because I was sick of waiting for the bus to move because of this person. Greatest part is that the person was a guy! It was killing me! I can't stand people who have no courtesy for others, who think of only themselves, and can't think for themselves. I know I need to show mercy and grace, but c'mon!!! Chicago is full of inconsiderate, self-centered, arrogant morons. But I guess that is where I shouldn't be like that...and I should try to not kill random people on the CTA.